Posted by: VoiceinRecovery | February 10, 2010

I Choose Sanity

I wrote this poem a few years ago. I often wrote poetry when I was struggling with ambivalence. I would go back and forth from wanting to recovery, and yet not wanting to stop the behaviors. I had moments of darkness and moments of light. This is my “light” moment.

I Choose Sanity

i walk slowly to the light
knowing the journey will not be easy
but i refuse to sit and do nothing
because i am worth every step i take

i may fall backwards
and want to give up
to give in
but these fleeting thoughts i will let go

i will let go of the desire to be perfect
to accept who i am in this journey
to know there is a light at the end of the tunnel
that i am worth the journey

it may be hard
i may cry
i may feel pain
but these moments to shall pass

a little walk is better than sitting frozen
i may take two steps back and one step forward
but this is ok
it is ok to be who i am

for these are just moments
and they too shall pass
i refuse to give up
and be defined by it

for i am more than i can see

i choose to see me in my loved ones eyes
to see what they see
to believe in that
and to one day get back to that place in my own mind

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Responses

  1. this is beautiful

    • Thank you very much!

  2. Beautiful, just like you 🙂

    • Muah! xoxo

  3. Very beautiful and very hopeful. It’s very encouraging to those of us still struggling with letting go of the behaviors. Very well done, Kendra!

    • Thanks Jenn 🙂

  4. I really… Don’t know how to put words to this. Because you took them all.

    If it is okay by you (and only if it is alright with you), I would like to have a copy of this and put it on my wall, as a constant reminder and inspiration.

    Your words are beautiful, your message is clear.
    It showed me some clarity, and let me know it’s okay to struggle.
    Thank you, thank you so much.

    Love,
    Eleanor

    • Of Course this is alright!!!!! I am so humbled you find it to be inspiring and spoke to you! Thank you for the really touching response!

  5. your poem is wonderful and took the feelings/thoughts out of my head


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