As I have stated previously in my Body Image Under Attack post, I have a tendency to pick on body parts. I select one and focus on its imperfections at times. I am sure I am not alone in this, but in recovery it is a very uncomfortable first thought because I would have hoped to have been past such criticism by now. I have to remind myself that 1) I am human and 2) the journey is long, a progress, and we all have a range of challenges that pop up from time to time.
As I have mentioned before, I started Pilates a month ago. I have loved it for so many reasons, a few I will state below:
- It clears my head and helps me let work go and creates a transition into the weekend or a separation from work and home life
- I love the feeling of being sore, I feel like I am doing something with my body
- After a class I always have a lot of energy
Another thing I have noticed recently is APPRECIATION of my tummy!!! Last night I was at home I realized I carry myself different; I carry myself taller, and am mindful of how my body is carried when walking, sitting, and lying down. I realized how proud of my tummy I am. I am SOOO grateful for my tummy muscles for being pushed, challenged, and sore through a majority of my week! I push my tummy so hard and never once in pilates or after when it is sore do I criticize it for not being flat, for having too much skin, for not “looking” the way I want it to look.
I got so excited last night, I rambled to my guy, bounced around and literally pulled up my t-shirt and said – TOUCH MY BELLY! Feel those muscles underneath – aren’t they fabulous! I made him touch all over my tummy in different areas to feel all the work my tummy has been doing for me in pilates! This in itself is absolutely amazing. I am one to hide my tummy, I constantly don’t want my guy to touch it out of fear of it not being tight enough, perfect enough, or flat enough. I would push his hands away because I was self conscious. He LOVES my tummy, always wants to touch it, compliments me on it, so all of my self-doubts are just that – doubts and not based on reality, but on feelings of inadequacy.
This new found appreciation of my tummy is a GIFT of pilates and it is a gift because I am appreciating what my body CAN DO and not what my body LOOKS LIKE. It is a happy place to be in. Appreciation of my body for what it can do instantly made me feel confident, sexy, and wanting to run around telling people to touch my belly! This is what Pilates has given me – a better Body Image and appreciation.
Who would have thought!!!!! For this I want to thank my tummy and say I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!
How about you? Have you had a moment of appreciation for what your body CAN DO versus what it looks like? Have you appreciated and said thank you to your body?