Written by ViR: Dolores Schwartz (@GettinFit_Bah_D)
I started a blog post (five in fact) And it wasn’t jiving with me. I even had a case of writers block…
Talking about recovering from bulimia is hard… But, I want it to talk about it… I want people to know about the harm, bulimia has on the body both physically and mentally.
Then, today I saw a tweet about New Years Resolutions. The light went off!! Like most people I make them, and like most people I never keep them. (Then you have those that just don’t make them at all… And that’s ok too! I’ve had years like that!)
Except last year.
I kept every single last one of them!
I resolved to become accountable!!
I got healthy!
I allowed myself to make mistakes!
I allowed myself to be human!
I went back myself loving myself!!
In 2009 I almost died from what was supposed to be a “simple procedure”, I am 34 and I had to get a partial hysterectomy. It was far from simple, I walked away with; Pulmonary emboli, a stay in ICU, two weeks in the hospital, two pints of blood later … Not to mention my year recovery process, oh and then the domino effect it had on my health. I went back into the hospital a month later to be diagnosed with pusedo tumor cerebri. (Say that fast five times! Ha) Oh, I am just warming up!
That’s when I was told, “if you lose weight it will help your condition” I died inside. I thought about all the abuse I had ever done to my body.
All those years of laxatives, bingeing and purging, diuretics… I needed to make serious changes! I couldn’t live like this.. My body still needed to heal.
I got out of the hospital with another round of meds on Dec 31…
Where I made this promise to myself. “To get healthy once and for all!!
Once I was cleared of all the blood clots I was going to make a call to my friend a personal trainer (I needed that push.. And that’s ok to admit that! That was my accountability factor… She was saving my life without even knowing it!) and I was going to forever abandon my old ways… I was going to be in “control”…!!
I took control over my life…! Did I have triggers – absolutely! Everyday! But, I had to abandon my old ways… If I wanted to live healthy! That was my goal!
How did I do it?
I was accountable! That’s all!! And when I would start to think about reaching for a laxative or binging… I would think about how far I’d come and how proud I was of the person I was becoming.
I make it sound easy! It’s not. It’s a long hard road. I am not going to sugar coat. You never know what your tomorrow holds. So, cherish each day! Respect your body!
One day you will need it to be strong!